I learned about them as a teenager and found the form fun and fascinating. I have never mastered the genius of writing one that made obvious sense, or told an understandable story, as some poets have, and can accept that I very likely never will. But everyone needs a goal, right? Today I am posting one that I wrote eons ago. I will not explain what it means because I like the reader to take ownership and get what they can out of poetry.
Sestina Op.2 No.5
Everything I ever wanted I found in you
Remind me what do I want?
Here prostrate in the light of candles
I have no soul
I have not the strength to search
The depths of truth
Will you fill me find my truth
That I might in the grace that is you?
Or is it solely my job, this search?
I do too much thinking and want
Only to know the life of a soul
As I ritualistically lay in front of candles
Before now as I was lighting the candles
I was thinking of the phrase burning truth
What would it be? How would it take my soul
Or is that a part of the magic of you?
My questions are innumerable and not what I want
Not the things themselves, just the tired search
Oh, I don’t want to get up, I don’t want to search
To do more than languish in the light of candles
I don’t know what I need, do you know what I want?
Can you? All knowing why not show me truth
Just throw me a bucket of you
I’ll lie here while it falls, finding my soul
Are the core and the soul
The same? I search
But can you
Who made the light of candles
Who personifies truth
Can you give me want I want?
I know I know it doesn’t matter what I want
I need to find my soul
Can’t I know the truth
Must I ever search
Here with only me and candles
For I cannot find you
Come I say to you but not to my soul
Rituals and candles questions and wants
But fatal searches and still can’t find truth
So, why am I posting this? I used to write one poem every month. I want to do that again, and I want to write sestinas. At least for a while. It's like having a puzzle to solve, or a mystery to crack, and who doesn't like doing that? Sure, I could just keep watching British mystery shows, but really, wouldn't this be at least marginally more productive? And guess what?
I'm going to share them with you.