Tuesday, March 13, 2012

 I couldn't resist these anemone. I went for manure and added some beauty to the day. I've had such fun getting outside and preparing the garden for the season. And I've been paying more attention to how I feel physically as I work. I have stopped for a breath and a drink of water more frequently and I feel fantastic! I can't wait to plant some veggies and flowers and maybe a couple new herbs.... haha, "maybe" haha, I crack me up!
Our third wedding anniversary is coming up and I have been trying to start a tradition of giving gifts which will add to the comfort and beauty of our bedroom. Last year I found a great cotton blanket big enough to use for our main cover, and cool enough for summer. I had great plans for embellishing it....still do for that matter. This year we are going to work together to make a headboard. Jason made us a bed the week after we got married, now we need a headboard. I wanted a padded one so I could sit up a bit more to read at night and be comfy, so I'm making the cover for the board and he is making the board! This is a picture of the center of the cover, or rather of the blocks I'll use to make the center. One of these days I'll post about the quilting group/class/thing I've joined this year.... I'm learning so much!!

About the Dr. visit. My liver, kidney's and thyroid are perfect! So he wants me to loose a pound a week and in a month if I've done that then we'll just keep monitoring things. He thinks that if I can keep loosing weight that will fix the problem. But there is a chance that it won't affect it at all, so if after loosing a significant amount of weight I still have high blood pressure then we will look into prescriptions.
Now, on the one hand a pound a week doesn't sound all that hard. On the other hand it doesn't sound like enough, and yes, in this case there are three hands, on the other hand being consistent and making these changes permanently sounds too hard. But I hate the idea of being on blood pressure meds. So I'm trying. I haven't been back to the Dietitian, so I don't have any news about more potential weight loss. When I do, I will report it. I need to get back in the habit of daily exercise. I got out of it because the 10 days or so after Dr said no more cardio, I was very ill.... gardening doesn't count, at least not for me. So, here's to hoping I can reincorporate that into my daily routine!!

Thursday, March 1, 2012

Sestina for February

Before I give you the poem I will let you know that due to some pressure from well meaning and dear friends I went to the Dr. about my blood pressure. It is high, but on the boarder as far as needing to be medicated. However some of the episode type things which have happened to me along with other information lead him to order a lot of blood work and an EKG, the results from which I will not have until Monday. So, I'll let you know what is up with that next week. He did say good job for starting with the dietitian and for loosing 4lbs since I started seeing her and 16lbs since my highest weight on record.

Now for some poetry.

I decided to do something simple to see what it was like. For the shortest month of the year, this Feb, has been quite long! So this is what I have.

I want to scream
I want to cry
I want to wail
I want to be still
I want to sing
I want to soar

I need to soar
I need to scream
I need to sing
I need to cry
I need to be still
I need to wail

I must wail
I must soar
I must be still
I must scream
I must cry
I must sing

Let me sing
Let me wail
Let me cry
Let me soar
Let me scream
Let me be still

I know how to be still
I know how to sing
I know how to scream
I know how to wail
I know how to soar
I know how to cry

Now I will cry
Now I will be still
Now I will soar
Now I will sing
Now I will wail
Now I will scream

Cry sing, wail scream,
Be still        soar