Quick, Eat Something!

Not really.
It does feel that way some days though.
I met with the Dietitian. The good news is that my cholesterol and glucose are fine. My triglycerides...... and blood pressure..... Not so great. Bad in fact.
And my eating habits are abysmal.
So she gave me some direction and told me to keep a food journal and I am surprised by some of what I'm learning about me and food.
Mostly it is not enough to take this one day at a time for me. I need to go more like one part of the day at a time. But if I do that then it is doable. hehehe, just got to be focused and determined and so on and so forth. She gave me a lot on information about protein and carbohydrates, and a formula to be sure I'm getting enough of each kind. It is funny because I now eat three meals and two stacks. I am to watch the portion sizes - this is the funny part - I find that I think what is the right amount for snacks and breakfast and lunch are too big, but sizes for dinner are too small. But balance is key, throughout the day, and everyday.
I don't drink nearly enough water, or anything really. So getting used to drinking, hydrating again is challenging. I was consuming around 2 glasses of water a day and 2-4 cups of coffee and about once a week drinking a soda. To get me started I am to drink at least 4 glasses of water a day and have as much water as I do coffee when I have coffee. I am going to float away! But it's only been a day and I feel better. :)
Jason is super duper supportive. We do the pilates fusion videos together whenever our schedules allow for it, and when they don't he does that and I do something...just not always the pilates. 13 days of exercise down. !!! Go us! We take Saturdays off. :)
All in all things are going well. Plugging along with school and enjoying life as a barista!

Making It Real

This is the view of our livingroom for a time most days of the week.

A couple weeks back, Jason started doing an exercise routine everyday before work. I've wanted to incorporate exercise and activity to my daily routine, but consistently failed. So we began doing it together most days. 

It is nice to go for a walk with the man I love. We can talk through anything from what we're doing with the rest of the day/weekend, to how we feel about various events. And when we do a video together its nice to have someone there sharing the pain and triumph of completing the whole video! 

I am going to see the nutritionalist at work this week. We are going to create a plan and hopefully solve some of my health problems. Time will tell. But I feel good about sticking with a plan that is for my life and that my life's partner supports. 

Big changes are happening, but in small doable steps and I am not making these changes alone. I am just about the happiest, most blessed girl in the world.

January's Sestina

I wrote this while on break at work today. I've been thinking a lot about my favorite place lately. I love my husband, profoundly and into my bones. This poem is still quite rough, I might try writing February's poem earlier in the month and have some time to refine it before posting.... we shall see, any who, here it is.

I am profoundly content

When resting in his arms

Death and destruction

Are kept at a distance

While his strength

Holds my heart

Fragments of my heart

Begin to content

Themselves  strengthened

While held by his arms

His own pain distant

I pray for no destruction

Yet I know I may need destruction

For the depths of my heart

To stop keeping him distant

And allow for contentment

To fill me to my arms

And imbue me with strength

Seeping through my veins strength

Grown from the roots of destruction

Flowing in me through my arms

My legs my hands my heart

Yet with this I am not content

Not while he is distant

Looking toward the distant

Future I pray for strength

For the chance to still be content

Hoping to survive destruction

Massaging the depths of my heart

His love flows straight through his arms

Timeless in his arms

I work to ever lessen the distance

And keep my feet in my heart

So I can draw strength

Still from the past destruction

And what I learned about contentment

Our arms joined in strength

Contentment and heart

Despite any amount of distance or destruction